For me romantic love has been a strange and cruel thing. I tend to be the last guy that notices or comments on the hot girls that walk by. I am normally unmoved entirely by "10/10" type girls, probably because they don't show much depth of character.
Normally how it goes is a girl sort of hits on me, and it's on but for whatever reason I never fall for them emotionally, no matter how attractive they are. Perhaps it's because they're too into materialistic girly crap I can barely pretend to have any interest in?
I always tend to fall for the ones that I detest at first. Then something about their character, highly outspoken or not afraid to speak their mind where most people might hold their tongue. Quirky not afraid to push buttons, not easily embarrassed tomboyish to the level that they don't care about being all made up, or obsess over cute clothes, not afraid to get their hands dirty, and I like a certain level of a tough exterior but not afraid to admit flaws and vulnerabilities.
For whatever reason it's the flaws and vulnerability that really grip me and make me feel protective. I don't know if this is the opposite of or a similar version of putting a person on a pedestal?
For what ever reason it's this type of girl I become infatuated with, yet I've never had a lasting successful relationship with a girl who fits this criteria.
The sad joke is, the more I care for them and want to be a provider and a protector, they are turned off by it or something doesn't work out.
The more I am unmoved and don't give a fuck, those are the ones that won't leave me alone.
It's absolutely absurd, that it always seems to work out that way. Maybe not for everybody, but it sure has for me.
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